One foot in front of the other

It's been a while since I posted.  There have been some changes in my life, nothing too drastic. The biggest one is that I started a new job in January and I really like it! I got a new tattoo that says "Don't stumble over what's behind you." I got it as a daily reminder to keep moving forward and to stop beating myself up for past decisions  and mistakes. It's a battle every day and a conscious effort but I feel like I'm a more positive person these days .I made a New Year's resolution to be more positive about things. This resolve has been tested by my new coworkers ,whom I love dearly but complain all day long about everything. I sometimes wonder if I was that person once upon a time and if I was just as annoying.  I'm guessing I was. I'm still trying to put Fundy world in the rear view mirror and I think I'm doing a pretty good job although I did have a minor setback about a month ago. We got a message from our old church on the home answering machine (yes we still have a land-line)  inviting us to the special service in which the former pastor aka His Royal Highness would be preaching .I was pretty calm until my oldest son overheard the message and became extremely upset. That did it. I had to force myself to calm down before I called them and told them what they could do with their invitation. I sent a message on Facebook telling them to remove us from their contact list, no calls, letters or door knocking. They had sent us a postcard the previous week inviting us to the special service which I promptly ripped up and threw in the trash .The response was "Will do. God bless ". The condescending "God bless " bothered me a little but I'm truly trying to move forward past this ugly chapter in our lives. I still have the involuntary eye rolling reaction to some things but I suppose that's better than having an anxiety attack. Progress is progress!