Bent but not broken

I had to make a difficult decision last week and long story short, it got blown way out of proportion. I was betrayed by someone I thought was my friend and it was a shock. Had this happened a year ago, it would have crippled me emotionally. Does it bother me?  Of course it does just as it would bother anyone with a heart and feelings but I'm not letting it devastate me the way I would have in the past. I haven't shed one tear or lost a minute of sleep over it. I can't express enough how good counseling has been for me!  People who have not experienced depression or anxiety don't understand why these little victories mean so much but to me, it feels like I have climbed a mountain!  It is great to be able to get through a difficult situation without retreating into a dark hole and beating myself up. Yay me!!

I have so much stuff floating around in my head that it's hard to know where to start. I guess I should start with a really quick explanation of who I am and why I am here on this site. I'm a married mom of two teenage boys and a displaced Southern girl still trying to figure out where I fit in, even after living here in the strange land of western Pennsylvania for almost twenty years. I've struggled with depression and anxiety most of my life which is a big reason for this blog. I started counseling last summer and it's helped me a lot but I still feel like I need an outlet for all the chaos in my head. Most of the time I feel like I am barely hanging on,although I'm in a better place than I was a year ago. My life hasn't been easy,  especially in the last few years but I'm hoping that I will be able to get a handle on things someday and not always question and doubt everything.